Yin

passive and dark

Banksy steal?? - from the wall down the street here in PDX

Is that what we are meant to be.
passive and dark?

I do not know why I still have these residual feelings of ick. She was quickly muted and disappeared. Which if you have followed her on any level, you understand is her reaction to most things that cause pain. I want to empathize, I don't, it makes me pathologize. 

Retreat. I do not want my women to retreat. I do not want to be taught to use my platform to speak my mind, and then refuse to defend it when it is seen as insincere or unkind. What is nice, the passive aggressive tone that is upended as quickly as pretended. Masking the natural reaction, or intuitive feels, of reality, yours more kind than most even with disabilities and disorders. 

SAFE. oh this word. How much has white privilege patterned this response? The definition so varied by life, gender, race, and overall perceived relevance.

to be free. 
to be free. 

To speak back. Without it being considered an attack. 
(and I do not mean for that freedom to be used to call a child the n word on a play ground and then crowd fund more than the NAACP). That kind of freedom does not appeal to me. 

I do not want to stay in unhappy because of the church, or teach folks to not get to the root, of disagreed. I do not want to teach or preach anything but recognizing how deeply even acceptable is rooted most often in still, that perceived calm and collected expectation of female.  

I am part of a community, here, that said loudly there is a reason this doesn't and isn't sitting right with me. It was not about celebrity, it was that one being called themselves open and vulnerable and then paywalled engagement immediately. 

That is not my definition of community.